The Stone

It's kind of hard to see...his name is in the middle. Here's what it says:

Gabriel James

Born into the arms of Jesus

on October 30, 2009

Thanks to my friend, Charity who took this photo!

I haven't been to the cemetary since this was taken. There's no peticular reason. I think about going, it just doesn't happen. And it's not really a place I want to go alone...I guess I just don't really like going to cemetaries. I don't think of Gabriel as being there. I think of him in Heaven playing and laughing with Jesus and his family and other little children. I am hoping to at least get to the cemetary on his birthday to honor his memory. Maybe bring some flowers or a pinwheel (I have two still!).

I still think of Gabriel everyday but haven't cried for a while. It's hard to imagine what he'd be like now at 9 months if he would have lived. It's hard to think of what your child would have been like when you never got a chance to meet them.

I do know one thing, he would have been as beautiful as the day he was born!

And now the tears come...

Loving you, missing you, thinking of you, everyday...baby boy.